To say we are keeping busy is an understatement. The best way to survive the grief is to stay busy, thats not to say that it is ignoring the grief because it isn't, its just easing the grief. The void just gets larger and larger as the months pass. For us its just a realisation creeping in that we miss Matthias so drastically. There is no ease of pain yet and in fact if that was to ease would that mean that we had forgotten? We will continue to feel the acute pain and in time that will go and be replaced by a dull ache which will remain with us forever and that will remind us that our darling boy is with us and being carried by us always and forever. We enjoyed a week away at Easter. We visited a holiday park in the New Forest which we had been to with Matthias for many years. Thankfully it was harder for the adults. The children, including their cousins, were able to enjoy their play with magical moments of remembering Matthias. Like Jos said "sometimes i forget to think about Thi but i never stop missing him". Perfect Jos. Our biggest achievement has been with my wonderful sister in law who only yesterday completed the LONDON Marathon in aid of children with cancer. The emotion of the day was more than i can put into words. The pain people go through for others is truly inspirational. Nicol (sister in law) completed the run in under 5 hours and looked so beautiful at the end. Beauty of someone who had accomplished a huge challenge and completed part of all our journey for our boy. My brother, the fund raising ambassador, with my sister in law and nieces has raised over £8,000 to date. An amazing amount of money which Matthias was key to. Hoping and praying that the money will go to help a family like ours. The emotions of our grief never stop flowing as a whole extended family and thats what makes this journey so special. I now know and realise why Matthias was so so passionate about his family and why his saddest moment was when i told him he would die young he said" but Mummy all i want is a house, a wife and a family". Family has been the root to survival in our tragic and unfair situation. Matthias continues to teach us more and more as we move through the months missing him. We carry you always and love you forever darling. xxxxx Posted on April 23, 2012